(Fic) God only knows Part I - sequel to Known knowns

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Title: God only knows
Author; captanonymus
Rating (G-NC17): G (I think)
Main Character(s) and/or pairings; Ryan/Colin
Summary: Sequel to Known knowns - What happens after their declarations of love on the beach?
Word count: 1707

As always, feedback greatly appreciated

Previously in Known knowns;

He kissed Colin again, opening his mouth and he was delighted when Colin mimicked his action.

Soon, they were kissing as ferociously as they had done earlier that evening. Colin was arching his back, pressing into Ryan and Ryan could feel the evidence of his arousal. He moved his hand, un-tucking Colin’s shirt and soon his hand was roaming over bare skin. Not to be outdone, Colin moved his hand under Ryan’s shirt, lightly scraping his back with his fingernails….

Ryan moaned into Colin’s mouth at that and with an amazing display of self control, he tore his mouth away from Colin’s.

 

Colin gasped at the loss of contact and shot an alarmed look at Ryan.

 

“Ry?.....”

 

“Oh Col, the things you do to me……” Ryan exhaled forcefully, trying to get his emotions under control   “but I don’t want our first time to be out here on the beach, in public…Can we go home?”

 

“My apartment?”

 

“Uh huh……. The bed was so comfortable, which is good because I intend to spend a long time in it…..”

 

“With me?”

 

“Oh yes, most definitely with you….”

 

“Good…..”

 

Ryan rolled off Colin and stood up, holding out his hand to help Colin up, never letting go of his hand, Ryan pulled him along “Let’s go…..I have an idea about those strawberries I brought….”

 

God only knows - A Sequel

 

After their heart to heart, they had walked back to Colin’s apartment, holding hands the entire way. When they’d made it upstairs, Colin’s hands were shaking so much he could barely get the key in the lock. Ryan had taken over and within seconds, Colin found himself pressed against the wall and being kissed senseless.

 

Somehow they made it to the bedroom without tripping over the clothes they were shedding in the process. The sight of the bed sobered Colin considerably. He felt Ryan’s arousal pressing into him and for the first time, he became nervous. Ryan must have noticed the change in his soon to be lover and he pulled away slightly.

 

“Are you OK?”

 

“Yeah…..I…..Uh…..you know…..I…” Colin was stammering, which made him blush, which made him stammer even more “I’m sorry Ry….nervous, you know..”

 

“Yeah….”

 

“It’s just…I……I’m not gay” he blurted out, earning him a raised eyebrow from Ryan.

 

“Well, Col, in case you haven’t noticed, I didn’t drag you in here to play chess” Ryan’s tone had lost all playfulness “What are you saying Col, that this has been a game, see how far you could push me?”

 

“No!!” Colin was horrified, this was going all wrong. “Ryan, I *love* you!, I love you so much but I’ve never….you know…..with a man”

 

“You seemed to be doing alright…” Ryan was clearly not convinced.

 

“Yeah but that’s just kissing, this…” He pointed to the bed “ it might hurt…” he said in a small voice.

 

Ryan melted at the insecurity Colin was displaying “Oh Col, I won’t hurt you!...we don’t have to…you know…..there are other ways….”

 

“You’re not disappointed?”

 

“Col, I’ve finally been given what I’ve wanted for years! You! Whatever we do now, will be a million times better than doing it by myself and thinking of you…”

 

“Ugh….nice image. I feel so cheap now….” Colin smirked. His worries had been allayed. Ryan didn’t mind taking it slow. He looked at Ryan again and desire ignited. He grabbed him and backed him into the bed.

 

That had been 8 months ago and though they had done everything else in the bedroom, Colin still was not ready to take the final step. It made Colin very insecure. The more he thought about it, the more it scared him. He felt guilty about denying Ryan but it made him so nervous, any suggestion by Ryan to take things further made him so nervous he had to fight the urge to puke up his spleen, so after a while Ryan had given up. He figured it would happen when Colin was ready. He felt far too blessed to push him. He knew Colin felt guilty about it but he had reassured him every time he didn’t feel he was missing out on anything. 

 

Ryan’s divorce had come through without too much trouble; it seemed Ryan had been right when he voiced his suspicions about Pat having an affair. Within weeks he’d moved into Colin’s apartment and domesticity set in. Ryan had decided to take a break from work for a year and took care of their place. Colin still had a tour to finish but he agreed that no new dates would be added, which meant he’d be home by Christmas, which was now only four weeks away.

 

Ryan was determined to make their Christmas extra special. He wanted Colin to have the perfect holiday after the crazy schedule he’d been keeping. He’d planned it so they could spend the first day together and get “reacquainted” again and for Luke to come over and stay the second day. He knew Col loved to cook but he really wanted to take care of him this time, so he’d been taking cooking lessons. He was not a natural cook but he was determined to pull off the most fantastic Christmas meal Colin had ever had. He also took up massage lessons. He knew how exhausting touring could be and Col would over-stretch himself sometimes. He was sure Col would appreciate the gesture. He loved being touched and his back did trouble him sometimes. And besides, he could use his massage skills to his advantage. Just thinking about the possibilities made Ryan grin from ear to ear. If it were up to him, this was going to be the most splendid Christmas ever, with Colin in their bed, sated in more ways than one…..

 

 Even though they had not used the phone that much before their relationship changed, now they spoke every day. Lately however, their conversations had been shorter due to Ryan’s increasingly busy schedule. Ryan hadn’t really noticed, with everything that was going on but Colin had, and he was worried. Ryan sounded more and more distracted on the phone and instead of the 45 minute long conversations he was used to, Ryan was now seemed eager to hang up, usually after less than half an hour. Before he went on tour, they had agreed a set time for their calls. It was easier that way. With Colin on tour, Ryan knew better than to phone him at any given time, he might be interrupting rehearsals, or such and Colin hadn’t wanted Ryan to have to sit by the phone all day in case he might ring. They had stuck to the pre arranged time but now that Colin was worried, he decided to ring Ryan a good 45 minutes before the prearranged time.

 

“Hello”

 

“Ryan?” It didn’t sound like Ryan…..

 

“No, he’s in the shower, can I take a message?” the unfamiliar voice was polite and damned, it sounded sexy! What was Ryan doing showering while there was a sexy man in the apartment? Glad you’re not jumping to conclusion there Mochrie, he told himself but he couldn’t help it. In his mind Ryan was getting it on with a bronzed beach god. With lots of hair…. He groaned.

 

“ Sir? “ the voice enquired again, Damn, he sounded young too…. How the hell am I going to compete with a young, bronzed beach god?  

 

“Er…it’s alright; I can ring back later” Colin managed to choke out. He was about to hang up when he heard Ryan’s voice in the background.

 

“Who is it Geoff?” Ah, Geoff, is it?

 

“I don’t know, he’s not given me his name yet” This was obviously aimed at Ryan, as Geoff’s voice had sounded further away. “Sir? “ Colin stayed silent “I think he’s hung up…Did you get all the oil off? This flavoured stuff is great but it wrecks your clothes….” And then the line went dead. Geoff obviously must have hung up. Colin slumped back into his chair, his mind reeling….. He didn’t want to believe the worst, but you didn’t have to be a rocket scientist to work out that Ryan and Geoff hadn’t been playing monopoly.

 

He’s cheating on me…..that’s why he’s not been pushing me….he’s getting it somewhere else! And whose fault is that Mochrie?! He’s an attractive man, he doesn’t have to put up with your blushing virgin bride antics! No! Ryan wouldn’t do that to me, he loves me! Sure, but you’ve hardly seen him and lately hasn’t he seemed more preoccupied on the phone?….add one and one together man! It will probably only be a matter of time before he leaves you! No! I don’t want to think like that!

 

When Brad knocked on the door of his hotel room 20 minutes later, Colin was still in the chair. It was only on the third knock he was roused from his near catatonic state and answered the door.

 

“Ready?” Brad sounded disgustingly cheerful, as always. “Hey Colin, are you alright? You don’t look so good….”

 

“Yeah, yeah, I’m fine…..”

 

“Okaaayyy….” Brad was clearly not convinced “Just came by to tell you me and some of the sound guys are gonna play some poker, do you want to join in? *After* you’ve spoken to Ryan of course, I know it’s nearly time for your phone call and you two are so disgustingly…Colin? “

 

“Ryan is leaving me…” Colin bit his lip to force back the sob that was fighting to come out

 

“What?!? When did this happen?” Brad was genuinely shocked. He knew it had cost both comedians dearly to admit that maybe they were a little more than friends.

 

“ I…. He…..Geoff..” Colin knew he wasn’t making much sense but his thoughts were so jumbled, he’d be hard pressed to recall his own name.

 

  “Who’s Geoff” Brad asked, rather bewildered.

 

“He’s a young, bronzed beach god with lots of hair”

 

“ I’ve never heard of him… Where did Ryan meet him? How long has this been going on? How *young* is young?” Brad was firing questions at him like a Jewish mother who just found out her son was dating a shiksa.

 

“ I don’t know, I don’t know…. I just phoned home and this guy answered and…”

 

“Hold on a minute…..this thing with Ryan and Geoff…Has Ryan told you this or are you supplying the storyline for the relationship?” Colin had the grace to look slightly embarrassed….

 

“But I phoned, and this guy picked up and he said Ryan was in the shower and…”

 

“Yes, and we all know it’s illegal to have a shower when there are other people around….It’s not like you’ve ever answered the phone in my room when *I* was in the shower…. Oh wait, I remember, it happens virtually *every* week!..... Tell me… ” Brad batted his eyelashes “when will you tell Ryan about us? I don’t want to keep it a secret any longer!” His voice rose at the end sounding like a mock imitation of Scarlett O’Hara

 

Colin looked suitably chastised. “So…. You think I’m jumping to conclusions?” he asked, hesitantly.

 

Brad shot him a look “Do you really want me to answer that or shall I just glare?”

 

“Alright, alright…. Maybe I was a bit quick but…. You know…” Colin looked uncomfortable.

 

“Are you and Ryan having problems?” Brad sounded thoroughly surprised “I thought you were deliriously happy and at it like rabbits whenever you got the chance…”

 

“We are…happy, that is…..and we do… you know…..but I….err…..Ryan….”

 

Brad looked at him, confusion etched on his face “ Bedroom trouble? You two?”