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Etincelles
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ryanmochrie as always. And a little note, this is based on the song "Sparks" by Coldplay...enjoy!
Title: Etincelles or "Sparks"
Rating: PG-13?
Pairing: Greg/Ryan
Disclaimer: I own neither of these men, but I still think it'd be really cool if I did...xD
Summary:
I promised him I would always look out for him. I promised him, but did I didn’t keep it. I sat there and watched us fall. He wasn’t the only one who fell, despite the fact that he thinks he is.
“What?” Greg looked over at me angrily.
“I just want you to know…that I’ll always be there.” I blush, and put my hands in my lap. He grabs my hands, holding them like they were his last link to Earth. I love how his moods could change so drastically.
“I love you Ryan.”
I gave him my heart. He held onto it tightly, but I let his get away from me. I regret it. I knew I would regret it when I let it happen. But I still let it happen. I let him get away from me.
“I love you, Greg, with everything.” I say, feeling nervous.
“I know you do. You don’t have to be afraid, nervous, or even protective of yourself anymore. I’m here, and I know.” It was the happiest moment in our lives, and neither of us knew exactly what to do with that.
I let him know I would never let him down, but that was just a lie. I knew that I couldn’t do that. I knew it was out of my hands. I always hurt the ones I love, and I always hurt myself.
I still haven’t figured why I did such a thing. Surly it wasn’t on purpose, but what if it was. I could be a masochist at heart and not know. But I couldn’t even bear the pain of losing him, so I try to rule that one out. It always haunts me though.
“Did I drive you away?” I ask, wanting to wrap him in my arms, but knowing I can’t.
“Yes.” His answer is short, but not exactly sweet. He doesn’t even offer an explanation. He just leaves it open-ended like that. And I think I begin to hate him for it.
When we had begun our relationship, I promised him everything. Now, years after it’s over, I offer him anything. As long as I can be a friend to him again. It killed me that he never forgave me. Yet I don’t blame him, if the tables were turned I would have done the same thing.
I said I would be the best thing that ever happened to him, but instead I became the opposite. For awhile he even had me believing that I could bring nothing but pain to give to everyone I meet. I know he didn’t exactly mean to, or maybe he did and I just don’t know it, but that’s exactly how I felt. I still offer him everything for a friendship, but he avoids me, knowing that he would cave in if he sat and listened to me just once. And he doesn’t want to cave after all these years, I’ve come to realise. I’ve come to accept.
____
End
so? *waits*
ryanmochrie as always. And a little note, this is based on the song "Sparks" by Coldplay...enjoy!Title: Etincelles or "Sparks"
Rating: PG-13?
Pairing: Greg/Ryan
Disclaimer: I own neither of these men, but I still think it'd be really cool if I did...xD
Summary:
I promised him I would always look out for him. I promised him, but did I didn’t keep it. I sat there and watched us fall. He wasn’t the only one who fell, despite the fact that he thinks he is.
“What?” Greg looked over at me angrily.
“I just want you to know…that I’ll always be there.” I blush, and put my hands in my lap. He grabs my hands, holding them like they were his last link to Earth. I love how his moods could change so drastically.
“I love you Ryan.”
I gave him my heart. He held onto it tightly, but I let his get away from me. I regret it. I knew I would regret it when I let it happen. But I still let it happen. I let him get away from me.
“I love you, Greg, with everything.” I say, feeling nervous.
“I know you do. You don’t have to be afraid, nervous, or even protective of yourself anymore. I’m here, and I know.” It was the happiest moment in our lives, and neither of us knew exactly what to do with that.
I let him know I would never let him down, but that was just a lie. I knew that I couldn’t do that. I knew it was out of my hands. I always hurt the ones I love, and I always hurt myself.
I still haven’t figured why I did such a thing. Surly it wasn’t on purpose, but what if it was. I could be a masochist at heart and not know. But I couldn’t even bear the pain of losing him, so I try to rule that one out. It always haunts me though.
“Did I drive you away?” I ask, wanting to wrap him in my arms, but knowing I can’t.
“Yes.” His answer is short, but not exactly sweet. He doesn’t even offer an explanation. He just leaves it open-ended like that. And I think I begin to hate him for it.
When we had begun our relationship, I promised him everything. Now, years after it’s over, I offer him anything. As long as I can be a friend to him again. It killed me that he never forgave me. Yet I don’t blame him, if the tables were turned I would have done the same thing.
I said I would be the best thing that ever happened to him, but instead I became the opposite. For awhile he even had me believing that I could bring nothing but pain to give to everyone I meet. I know he didn’t exactly mean to, or maybe he did and I just don’t know it, but that’s exactly how I felt. I still offer him everything for a friendship, but he avoids me, knowing that he would cave in if he sat and listened to me just once. And he doesn’t want to cave after all these years, I’ve come to realise. I’ve come to accept.
____
End
so? *waits*